100 things about Lindsay

I guess since I copied everyone else with blogging, I might as well copy you on this as well!! I have had so much fun reading everybody's list and I hope that my list is just as entertaining.

1. I have never been able to decide if blue,purple or pink is my favorite color! it changes almost daily
2. My favorite thing in the world is the sky. it's beautiful!
3. I miss being able to see more than five stars a night.
4. I think I have way more fears than a normal person should
5. I am terrified of death and worry about it at least once a week
6. My biggest fear is being alone
7. I am scared of people judging me and think about it everywhere I go, just walking into a store is sometimes difficult for me
8. The thought of my parents getting old is terrifying to me!!
9. if there is one thing in the world I could change about my past, it would be to have had a better relationship with my parents when I was younger.
10. I love to read and usually when I start a book, cant put it down until it is done
11. I love to scrapbook, it is a form of therapy for me
12. I cant imagine loving anyone more than I love my family.
13. I will always be convinced that Alexa is her mom and dads little angel, we were both stubborn and stupid enough that I don't think we would have ever settled down if it were not for her coming into our lives!
14. I am extremely glad that I never gave up the chase for Walter and finally broke him down! :)
15. I don't know where I would be if it were not for my family
16. My best friend is my mom, I am glad that I have finally grown up enough to have a good relationship with her
17. My sisters have always been my role models and I will always look up to them.
18. I wish I would have gone hiking with my dad more when I was younger.
19. I look forward to going on more hikes with him now that I am older.
20. I am constantly worried about my weight, but am most of the time too lazy to do anything about it!
21. I love food way more than I should!
22. My favorite tv show is the office
23. there is no way I could ever choose a favorite movie, it depends way too much on my mood
24. I love snowy days when I have nothing to do but curl up on the couch with Walter, cuddle, and watch a movie
25. I hate snowy days when I have somewhere I have to go.
26. spring time is my favorite time of the year
27. I love waking up to the sound of birds chirping
28. I have always and will always struggle with depression
29. The sound of people chewing drives me crazy
30. It scares me when people are angry or up tight because I always assume it has something to do with me
31. I hate winning games because I feel bad for the person who loses.
32. I am the biggest cat lover I have ever known
33. I cant throw anything away! I have tons of boxes of letters, emails, even notes from 7th grade and up! I keep everything!
34. I have O.C.D. when it comes to organization! my pictures and letters have to be organized perfectly or it drives me crazy! I hate when things are out of place.
35. I am always comparing myself to other people
36. sometimes I feel like I am not good enough for Walter
37. I am glad he doesn't feel the same way :)
38. I hate stupid drivers and road rage
39. I sometimes worry that Walter and I will never get to experience the joy of having a baby "together."
40. I love pictures and picture frames! (if you cant tell by coming to my house!)
41. I love decorating my house, and cant wait to have my very own house to decorate.
42. I love the smell of the earth after it rains.
43. I love the smell of cookies cooking.
44. I worry that I am not a good enough mother.
45. I fear that Alexa will make the same bad choices that I did when I was growing up.
46. I have a hard time trusting people
47. oh my gosh, on my favorite t.v. shows, I forgot to put friends!!!! I could watch my friends dvd's all day every day, if my husband would let me.
48. my favorite emotion is laughter through tears
49. I love to release my stress by crying because I feel so much better when I am done
50. I am scared of public bathrooms and i think I may have passed my fear on to my little girl!
51. I love shopping WAY too much! it is therapeutic to me
52. nothing makes me feel worse, than seeing a homeless person and not being able to help them! it breaks my heart
53. one of the things that made me fall in love with Walter was when he gave a homeless man a 20 dollar bill for dinner
54. I love when Alexa draws pictures for me
55. My new addiction is Guitar Hero
56. I hate when people ask me about beauty school.
57. I love being a dork
58. one of my favorite things to do is have ugly contests with Walter
59. I love that Alexa is silly like her mom and dad
60. It is very hard for me to sleep if Walter is not right next to me
61. I love to wear comfy clothes way too much. I am constantly in my comfy clothes.
62. I love when Alexa calls me mother
63. It's hard for me to show people my emotions, even when they are close to me
64. I wish I was better at cooking
65. I hate my feet
66. I hate my skin
67. I wish I would have learned to play the piano
68. I like being at the Fellmeth's when they play the piano, there is something comforting about it
69. I wish I wasn't shy.
70. I wish I would have had a better relationship with grandma and grandpa Hurst.
71. I want to have a better relationship with grandma Zentner.
72. I love that Walter is home by 5:00 every day.
73. I love having a clean house, but hate cleaning it!
74. I love music, and my favorite artists change all the time, but right now, my favorite singer is Nelly Furtado.
75. It makes me feel stupid when I run into people who knew me in high school
76. I would be lying if I said I didn't need therapy
77. I will never take therapy because I hate opening up to people
78. I love the sound of boots banging on the sidewalk because it means that Walter's home.
79. I am very insecure, and I rely on other people to make me feel secure.
80. my favorite type of food is Indian food
81. I wish I was more patient with Alexa
82. I don't know how to be more patient
83. I love to have bubble baths
84. I love to go on trips and stay in a motel
85. I wish I lived closer to my family
86. I have a nervous habit of biting my cuticles
87. I wish I had my long hair back
88. I don't like really hot summer days, I would way rather be cuddled in a blanket on a cold day
89. I enjoy tanning in the grass on a spring day
90. I wish I had Walter's motivation to exercise
91. it kind of freaks me out when I go to Blanding and I don"t recognize anybody. it makes me feel older than I am
92. I am scared to get old.
93. I cant wait to be retired and driving around the country, or camping and playing in San Juan county with my husband.
94. I want a little boy.
95. I am afraid that my stupidity made it hard for me to ever have one.
96. I hate to exercise.
97. I love the way I feel after I exercise
98. I am lucky to have such an amazing support system (even though I never deserved it)
99. I would not be where I am today if I didn't have that support system
100. this list was way harder to do than I ever thought it would be!